SP23. Personal Reflections of a School Board Meeting

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I pulled into the parking lot 15 minutes before starting time and immediately thought I should have come much earlier. As I drove to the back parking lot, I noted the surprising number of cars and even a Baptist church full-size bus, from Kannapolis which is not even a part of the Rowan Salisbury School System.

The event? An RSS Board of Education meeting to revisit the newly changed policy regarding GSA (Gay Straight Alliance) clubs in the local high schools. A few years ago the board voted to disallow what they called “sex-based” clubs in the school system, then within the last two months, under legal advice, changed that policy.

At the following meeting during the public comment time, eight spoke out against the change, and the board responded by choosing to revisit the issue in a public meeting with their attorney. Thus this meeting.

As I walked into the building in my church lady skirt, I was treated as a 52-year-old woman, with cordial greetings and smiles exchanged with strangers, and young boys opening the doors for me.  Entering the meeting room, I quickly spotted a friend amidst the crowd of strangers, and sat down in the back beside him. Then another friend came in and sat with the two of us.  Theirs were the only faces I recognized in the crowd, except for the board members and the media, most of whose faces I know only as public figures.  A TV camera was in place.

By starting time, there was standing room only, with many standing. There were maybe 100 present, including several young children, there with their parents. In the row in front of me were presumably a husband and wife and four little boys approximately 6-11 years old.

The atmosphere was pleasant, although charged with anticipatory energy.

Following the Pledge of Allegiance, the announcement was made that, although this was a special meeting, they would take public comment.  14 had signed up to speak, four in support of allowing the GSA clubs and ten in opposition, including six of the eight who spoke at the previous meeting.

Those speaking in support included a local PFLAG leader with a lesbian daughter, and a pastor. Among those in opposition was a young woman who brought her baby as a prop, and cried as she related her fears of her baby girl growing up and someone telling her she could be something besides a girl.  Another speaker cried at the thought of what she would tell her little children if they one day asked her about gay people.  As I returned to my seat after speaking in favor of the clubs, the glares from the audience were icy cold.  I was no longer the kind church-looking lady, but was Satan himself.

The young boy in front of me couldn’t stop watching me the rest of the meeting, with eyes that seemed to reflect both fear and the desire to show me he was not afraid of me. He knew how to deal with Satan.  How sad his eyes made me for the Christian Church. I longed to tell him that Jesus is the most important influence in my life, and that I love all children.  I wanted to tell him that if he or one of his brothers finds himself struggling one day with same-sex attraction and is rejected by his family and his church, I and other Christians with me will be there ready to support him, listen to him, and love him. Of course all I could do was smile at him and breathe a silent prayer.

As the speakers took their turns at the microphone, the crowd became a Baptist congregation.  The opposition speakers, often quoting Bible verses, were lauded with a sea of amens and loud applause, with an uproar when one supporting speaker was accidentally allowed more than his allotted 3 minutes. Two speakers accused the board of secretly letting the supporters know that public comments would be allowed, while keeping that knowledge from the opponents. The evidence: two of us had speaking notes. It was a church circus, reminiscent of the not-so-long-ago commissioner meetings during their discussions on prayer.  Two commissioners were present.  Mike Caskey spoke in opposition, and Jim Sides came in maybe an hour late and sat in the back.  As far as I could guess, if there were 100 people in the audience, 94 of those were in opposition to allowing GSAs, and four of the other six were the supporting speakers.

Following public comment, the board members, guided by their attorney, dove into their business. Susan Cox made a motion to ban all extra-curricular clubs. There was much discussion on this from the board members and the attorney. Although most of the board members seemed to want to ban the GSAs, they finally voted down the motion to ban all clubs. During the discussion, it was brought out that the largest GSA club in the county has no more than six students. It was amazing to me that these few students are apparently a large enough threat to our community that we would seriously consider banning clubs that are enjoyed by hundreds, maybe thousands of our students: Junior Civitan, Fellowship of Christian Athletes, Bible clubs . . .

During the discussion, Dr. Richard Miller, board chairperson, presented an admirable discourse about Jesus’ response to all kinds of people, with a reminder that not all Christians are in agreement on the issue, and that there is not just one Christian way of thinking. One woman in the audience arose dramatically, folded her arms in disgust, and exited the room.

A second motion was made by Josh Wagner that the wording be changed to only ban clubs that would encourage or discourage anyone’s sexual orientation. They went into closed session with the attorney, and came back to vote that one down also.  Thus the issue closed without any change, leaving all extra-curricular clubs open for students.

I didn’t stay for the final segment but left when the board went into closed session.  As a friend walked me back to my car, the air had changed. There were storm clouds in the sky but larger ones in my heart, as I pondered the state of the Church and how we have moved so far away from the example and teachings of Jesus.  I didn’t know at that time what the final vote inside would be, but my heaviness was that a whole roomful of people believed with all their hearts that fighting against gay people is God’s will. God, help us.


Salisbury Post‘s coverage of meeting here


SP22. Racism Patriot-Style?



50 years ago today, July 2, 1964, the United States passed the Civil Rights Act.

This morning’s local front page news headlines another of Rowan’s own, a local Tea-Party politician, being asked to step down from his appointed position because of racist posts on Facebook.

Earlier this week, in an article about racist accusations being made against him, he denied all racism, then in seemingly the same breath, stated that the NAACP is the most racist organization in the country.  I had to reread that line a few times to believe he actually said it in his own defense.

Do the Donald Sterlings, the Paula Deens, and the local Tea-Partiers believe themselves not to be racists? Are we really living in such a self-deceptive society?  Or are they well aware of their racism, like the white pointed hat wearers of the not so distant past, and attempting to conceal it just as those predecessors did?  I choose to believe most of today’s racism is of the ignorant variety . . .

According to the local paper, the offending Facebook posts have been removed, but here are a few that were easily accessed.  (I wonder what the “offensive” ones were like!)  The all-caps type is his, not mine; and the black print comments are mine.


Our country is the Confederacy?

The Republican Party is not Right-Wing enough. To hell with lesbos, queers, liberals, and abortionists!

Those irresponsible blacks
THE IRRESPONSIBLE BLACKS WILL REELECT HIM AND HE KNOWS IT. http://www.ncgop.org/ncgop-calls-patrick-cannon-resign-mayor-charlotte/

Got your assault weapon yet? Better hurry!
EVERYONE NEEDS AT LEAST 1 IN YOUR HOUSEHOLD TO PROTECT YOURSELF AND YOUR LOVED ONES AGAINST THE COMMING TYRANNY. http://www.thefederalistpapers.org/video-2/the-assault-weapon-rebellion

Of course
THE MOST DANGEROUS PERSON TO FREEDOM IN THE WORLD TODAY. http://www.thefederalistpapers.org/us/watch-how-obama-responds-to-35570-counts-of-voter-fraud-in-north-carolina

Likes Tillis

FRANKLIN GRAHAM, TELLING IT LIKE IT IS!!! FRANKLIN GRAHAM FOR PRESIDENT 2016!!!http://cnsnews.com/news/article/michael-w-chapman/rev-graham-muslims-who-want-practice-sharia-law-should-go-back-where?utm_source=Facebook&utm_medium=Marketing&utm_term=Facebook&utm_content=socialflow&utm_campaign=graham-sharia


a portrait of Robert E. Lee   http://fineartamerica.com/featured/2-general-robert-e-lee-1807-1870-everett.html


On Facebook he “likes”:
Warbird Pinup Girls
The Tea Party  

The Tea Party   


This sub-cultural brand of racism cannot be pinned to the Republican Party nor to the conservative religious denomination of which he is a part. Neither condones such radical extremism.

50 years ago today the United States of America passed the Civil Rights Act  . . . As Leonard Pitts so perfectly said it in his Sunday column, 50 years later we still have a long long way to go.


photo credit: Victor Chalfant. Posted on Mac Butner’s Facebook page with this personal comment: I KNEW THE SOUTH WOULD RISE AGAIN! GOD BLESS DIXIE! YEE HAW!!




SP19. Fred Phelps: Sifting Through His Tragic Legacy


According to a Twitter post by Fred Phelps’ son Nathan, the 84-year-old patriarch of Topeka’s infamous Westboro Baptist Church is in hospice care, near death.  Phelps’ tactics of spreading his “God Hates Fags” message were so harsh that even the churches that are outspoken against homosexuality deplored what he was doing.  Phelps, a disbarred lawyer, a four-time political candidate, an Eagle Scout and a civil rights activist in earlier years, will likely be forever known and remembered as the leader of that little gay-hating funeral-protesting church in Kansas.

 Fred Phelps is a tragic figure, a life lived in such a way that few will mourn his death, and millions are likely to celebrate it.  His “Fags Die God Laughs” picket signs are forever embossed on the public mind, the same public that will laugh with joy in the face of his death.  The tragic irony.

 Yet, it has been wisely stated that there is something to learn from every life, and Phelps is surely no exception.  A man with gifts, a man who made some contributions to the world in the past, but, by his own choosing,  a man who sold out along the way, maybe for fame and what he might have perceived as power.

Most church leaders with Phelps’ level of name recognition are mega-church leaders and/or TV evangelists, with their fame bringing even more growth to their churches; but Westboro Baptist Church reportedly has about 40 members, most of whom are family members of Phelps, and their media attention has not added parishioners to their pews. To add to his tragedy, many of his other family members, including son Nathan and three other of his 13 children, left the organization, and, according to Nathan’s Twitter report, the elder Phelps has been excommunicated from the church since August 2013.

Fred Phelps’ life seems a wasted one, but for those of us on the outside looking in, there is much we might learn if we will, first from Phelps’ own life, and second, from those of his followers.

Power.  Not an unusual motivator, but always a dangerous one, for when power is gained too quickly, it almost always becomes abusive. Phelps was a failure in many ways.  He was disbarred from his law practice.  He ran for several political offices but never won.  His church has not been successful.  But -  maybe it started with the murder of University of Wyoming student Matthew Shepard  –  the “God Hates Fags” picket signs caught the media’s attention, and Phelps’ name and face were soon recognized everywhere.

Did Phelps really hate gays that much, or was it all about personal power and media fame?  Who can know?  But we have all seen power take over people’s lives, especially those who seem to feel most without power.  Administrators who abuse their staff, white supremacists, those who concoct elaborate lies online just to see how far they’ll spread, those who physically or emotionally abuse their spouse or children, gunmen who kill school children, those who troll blog sites with the goal of stirring people’s anger . . . The desire for power and fame is dangerous.

Then there’s the question of those who followed Phelps.  Why?  How does Phelps, Koresh, Billy Graham, Nelson Mandela, Jim Jones, Charles Manson, Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr., Michael Moore, Rush Limbaugh, Jerry Falwell, Sun Myung Moon, Joseph Smith, MSNBC, Bill O’Reilly, the Dalai Lama, or Hitler attract followers?  People follow people usually for fear or for attraction, and we are all people.  We are all, by nature, learners, and we learn from those we “follow” – our ministers, our friends, our favorite talk show hosts, our favorite basketball players.

My pastor told a story Sunday of three neighborhood boys playing in the newly fallen foot-deep snow.  The father of one of the boys challenged them to a competition.  Positioning himself at the far corner of the yard, the challenge was to see which of the three boys could walk to him with the straightest path.  One carefully watched his feet as he trod to the father.  Another carefully watched the other two boys as he trod.  And the third, the actual son of the father, kept his eyes on the father the entire walk.  They finished with two very crooked paths and the last one straight.

When we “follow” our trusted mentors, even our trusted religious leaders, we are all susceptible to being led astray.  The goal on which we focus should be carefully chosen.  As Christians, while our pastors and teachers can be helpful guides, constant focus on the Christ from which we get our name is what will make our path straight.

Phelps was a misguided soul for whatever reason, as are all of us to some degree, ever seeking our own ways.  May we not forget out own faults as we react to the sometime-in-the-future news of his passing, and may we find the grace to leave all judgment in the hands of God.   

Two final personal questions to be sure our developing legacy is not like that of Phelps:

1.  Are we oppressing or putting down others as we find our way?

2.  Are we misusing the name of God to push our own agendas?


Would that our legacy be one of grace and love.




Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.  (Prov. 3:5-6)

I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.  (Phil. 3:14)

For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain. (Phil. 1:21)


SP18. Duck Hunting, Defrocking a Minister, and Other Gay Tidings

All in the same day, New Mexico became the 17th state to legalize gay marriage, Olympic figure skating gold medalist Brian Boitano came out as gay, the United Methodist Church defrocked the Rev. Frank Schaefer for refusing to denounce gay marriage, and, receiving by far the most social network attention, the A&E Network has suspended Duck Dynasty star Phil Robertson indefinitely for his published comments against homosexuality (in GQ Magazine, Jan. 2014).

Let’s address the public outcry of the latter first Many are claiming that their favorite duck hunter lost his job for sharing his faith.  You know, the war against Christians thing.  If this were the case, I would be among the loudest to protest, but this was not the case.  Others are claiming that his first amendment rights were abused Again, a great cause to be upset, but this was also not the case.  Phil Robertson and all of us have the right to say whatever we like without being arrested for it.  Phil was “indefinitely suspended” from his high paying high profile tv job, not prosecuted.

Faith in America said it well. “The Phil Robertson/Duck Dynasty/A&E issue is not a question of Phil Robertson not being able to express religion-based bigotry towards gay and lesbian people. It’s a matter of his employer choosing not to allow Robertson to espouse and promote this uniquely harmful form of bigotry under the A&E brand.”

Not only do we have a right to choose our own public image, our employers have that same right, and those who work in the entertainment industry making millions of dollars, like many of our actors and athletes including Robertson, have the opportunity to use their positions to influence the world for good, or the danger of putting forth an image that their networks, teams, etc. do not want attached to their name.  A&E had every right to suspend their star’s employment in the name of protecting their own reputation.

It was not Robertson’s statements of religious faith that brought his suspension.  It was his ignorant and offensive declarations about homosexuality (and maybe his race rantings or his ridiculous musings about vaginas and anuses).  While indeed certain extremist Christian groups have embraced such ignorance into their teachings, there is no legitimate connection between anti-gay sentiment and the Christ of Christianity.

The Duck Dynasty stars have always been outspoken about their Christian faith, becoming iconic figures to many of their viewers, and the show itself ends each episode with a prayer.  Politically, while the Robertsons have independently campaigned for Republicans, the show itself has drawn a following in both red and blue states and has managed to remain largely nonpolitical and to avoid issues like race and gay rights, according to the Chicago Tribune.

We all have our favorite public figures, and especially if we have just purchased Duck Dynasty t-shirts for everyone on our Christmas list, and have embraced them as Christian icons, we are hurt by this suspension.  My prediction is that he will be back after the dust has settled.  That’s my personal interpretation of the “indefinite” suspension.  If not, he will surely surface soon somewhere else.  We have not heard the last of Phil Robertson.  Besides, next season is almost all taped, so it’s pretty likely he’ll be there.

Perhaps those who are most enraged by Robertson’s suspension would most applaud the United Methodist Church for the second piece of news today, the defrocking of the Rev. Frank Schaefer Rev. Schaefer brushed against the Methodist powers for conducting a wedding ceremony for his gay son in a state where gay marriage is legal.  One month ago he was given a choice of abiding by the denomination’s entire Book of Discipline which would mean committing to never conducting another such service, or of being defrocked, and he was given one month to think about it.  That month ended today.  He chose to be defrocked.  

A courageous move on his part, challenging the status quo, the way it’s always been, forcing the establishment and the public to face the issue again.  Schaefer is not the first and surely won’t be the last, but he has lost his job for standing firm for his beliefs.  Again, just as with Robertson and A&E, the United Methodist Church has every right to choose their positions and to employ only those who comply.  Schaefer will have to find a way to minister outside the UMC. Rev. Jimmy Creech has written an excellent memoir of his similar defrocking, and his ministry has broadened tremendously.

I am not Methodist, I do not live in New Mexico, I was not familiar with Brian Boitano, and I have never watched Duck Dynasty, so I am not personally tied to any of these four stories.  Yet, I am very tied to all of them for two reasons.  One, I live and interact in a world of people on all sides of these stories, and two, I am a Christian.

As  citizens of the world, living and working together, we can be assured we encounter gay people every day.  The American Psychological Association has estimated that 1 in 10 males is gay and 1 in 20 females.  Many are choosing to live openly, but many more are just living their lives among us without our knowledge.  Maybe we could just be kind.  To everyone.  Without trying to figure them out or judge them.  Just plain “be ye kind one to another.”

As Christians, we do not know and understand all things.  There is much we have yet to learn, and there is much we, like everyone else, have been incorrectly taught.  Unlearning is far more difficult than learning, because, studies have shown, once we hear something seven times it often has become a part of who we are.  In many religious circles we have heard that homosexuality is a sin, not seven times, but seventy times seven. 

Today’s news shows a changing world with the wheels of justice ever spinning, sometimes forward, sometimes back.  Sexual orientation, the social justice issue of this generation, is widely misunderstood, especially in certain religious circles.  

My challenge to us as Christians is that we educate ourselves by listening to voices outside our own constructed boxes.  Use the news stories not just to seek argument, but to seek growth and understanding.  The media storms that follow news like today’s are a good place to find all kinds of voices, or the gay person in the next cubicle might be an excellent and enlightening voice. 

At the very least, as Christians and as human beings, let’s admit to ourselves that we really don’t fully get the orientation thing, and leave open the possibility that our understanding might, maybe, just could possibly be not entirely correct.


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SP15: I’m Humbled, Probably Not

“It humbled me to accept that award,” we might say.  Or “I was humbled to be asked to take that position.”  Really?  What does that mean? Does it just mean “I don’t want to brag, but”?  I see nothing wrong with sharing our achievements, and it is good to soften our words so as not to sound like we’re bragging, but if this is all humility has come to mean, I’m pretty sure we have missed it.  If we have to tell someone we are, we probably aren’t.

Humility is a Christian trait.  No one would argue that point, and the word itself is not lost to us.  Whatever it used to mean though, I fear has been lost and replaced by something easier for us to handle.

How would you describe humility?  Think about it.  Serving at the homeless shelter maybe?  A good service no doubt, but is it really a picture of humility? Do we serve because we feel the humanity of the homeless, see a part of ourself there, and feel compassion for them?  Do we want to sit at the table with them and listen to their stories, or are we only comfortable on the opposite side of the serving window? Either way, let’s keep doing it, but maybe we can’t use it as the definition of humility.

If I see a homeless woman sitting in front of the post office and offer to buy her a meal at the fast food restaurant across the street, do I order something for myself too and sit with her?  Do I listen to her stories, or just offer her my “wisdom”? What if someone else comes into the restaurant who knows me? Do I feel compelled to go over and explain to them that I don’t really know this person, that I’m just helping her because she’s homeless?  If so, let’s continue to do what we’re doing, but let’s not call it humility.

Think of your last mission trip or mission project.  Why did you go?  Why did you participate? Was the “mission trip” more of a “mission” or more of a “trip”? Did you see yourself as somehow above those you were serving – as the helper, the one with something to give?  Or did you see yourself in the others, on equal ground, listening and receiving as much as sharing and giving? Did you give because that’s what mission projects do, or did you give from a deep compassion that overflowed from within you?  Either way, let’s keep doing the mission projects, but maybe we can’t use them to define humility.

Humility comes from within, and it is those “within” traits that we are most likely to lose. We substitute the acts that come out of humility for the humility itself, running straight for the tangible but bypassing the more important intangible.  More important because if the humility is there, the acts come naturally, with no effort, no matter where we are.  The tangibles are easier.  We can touch them with our hands and see them with our eyes. The intangible is more difficult to find.  Thus we water it down and pretend it is just in saying the word, or in performing the deeds.

So where do we get a true picture of humility?  In Jesus.  Seems we always have to go back to Jesus.  Look at him as the woman washes his feet with her hair.  Unbelievable, even for his culture.  The disciples were appalled.  How could he allow such a woman to touch him like that?  Completely socially inappropriate, and an embarrassment to the disciples.  Jesus felt no embarrassment and received the heartfelt action in the spirit in which it was given, unconcerned with what others were thinking.

Look at him with the Samaritan woman at the well.  Another socially unacceptable encounter.  Speaking to a woman alone, and a Samaritan woman at that! What would people think of him?  Wouldn’t it tarnish his reputation?  Wouldn’t it ruin his chances of hanging out with the affluent people?  To Jesus, there were no outcasts, no people groups to avoid – not women, not lepers, not tax collectors, not homeless people, not adulterers, not the mentally ill, not Samaritans.  Jesus’ actions flowed from the intangible compassion within him.

But if we are doing the right things, does our motivation really matter?  It does, for while outer actions can give someone a meal or a coat, it is only true humility that can change the world. It is only when we see our own reflection in the face of the homeless man, the Muslim with her head covered, the undocumented immigrant, the gay teen, the drug addict, the abused child, the promiscuous young woman, the man in the wheelchair, the child with cancer, the person who can’t find a job, the man with HIV, the black/white/Hispanic woman, the mentally ill, the lonely soul in the nursing home, the rebellious child, the woman holding up the line with her food stamps . . . it is only when we can see our own connection to every human life, our own potential to have shared his/her circumstance, that we can find the endangered humility.

These Bible passages can help us find it: Deut. 8:2-32 Chron. 7:14 (we hear this one a lot, but we skip over what might be the most important word), 2 Chron. 12:12Prov. 11:2Phil. 2:5-81 Pet. 5:5

I propose a challenge for us.  Let’s pray for the seeds of humility to germinate from within us, and let’s privately commit to not say the word “humbled,” but to just allow God’s work within us to do the speaking.  How long will it take for anyone to hear?  The wait might make us humble.

Who Am I? – Casting Crowns



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